Some say I’m just plain crazy and leave it at that. The reasons I give for some of the things I do and some of the things I feel I need sound silly, ludicrous and even insane to most. They say I’m being stubborn or unreasonable.
Yet, I persist. I feel that I need some things a certain way in order to do them, have them make sense to me, or for the circumstances to turn out right.
Some are habits I refuse to give up. Some are the order in which I do some things. Some are actually superstitions that, in most cases, have been proven to be true.
I know. You think I’m out of my mind. You think that maybe you should consider distancing yourself from me a little more.
I’m asking you to put off your judgment of me. After all, you may have some obstinacies of your own that you harbor and they’re just different from mine.
I must prepare my first cup, well… really a giant mug of coffee in the morning.
I want my coffee a certain way and if it isn’t that way first thing in the morning, chances are I’m a Grinch for the rest of the day. After that first cup (mug), I mellow out. If someone else fixes my coffee and it’s off a little or a lot, I can live with it.
I must brush my teeth before taking my shower in the morning and have it be the very last thing I do before going to bed at night.
This one is because I have what is called Short-Term Memory Loss. If I don’t brush my teeth at these times, there’s an excellent chance that I’ll forget to do it all together. You may think the one at night isn’t as important but, truly, it is. If I forget at night, the likelihood of me forgetting in the morning rises considerably.
I must put on my socks and shoes last when getting dressed.
I think with most people shoes go on last. After all, if you’re not leaving the house or apartment, you may not even put on your shoes and instead, run around in your stocking feet. With me, if it isn’t shoes, it’s slippers with soles that aren’t slippery on tile, lament, or hardwood. This is just because my balance is wobbly at times. Putting on the socks next to last is because I end up feeling I didn’t do something right for the entire day if I don’t do it in this order.
I drink whatever beverage I have after eating, not before.
Of course, this means I do not eat breakfast seeing that I need that first cup (mug) of coffee in the morning. I just prefer my beverage at the end of the meal. It doesn’t taste as good to me when I interchange it with food.
Right after using scissors, book of stamps, wrapping paper, etc., they must be put back where they were.
This is one I have a hard time getting Hubby to do, and it drives me bonkers sometimes. The reason is, again, because of the Short-Term Memory Loss thing. I’ll never find those things unless they are put back where they belong and right away, not later. Yes, it’s a pain in the butt. No doubt about that.
I will not talk about good things of the future.
This is a full-blown superstition. Anything I’ll working on that I’m hoping will be a good thing in the future I will not discuss with anyone. I didn’t talk about the townhouse I was buying until the papers were signed and I had the key in my hand. I said nothing, zilch, zero about how I felt while dating my husband even though, secretly I knew I loved him. It was when he asked me to marry him that I felt it was all right to talk about how I felt.
The only thing I haven’t been faithful about with this superstition is writing. Many of you know that I’m trying to get through a writing project that I’m hoping will be a novel in the future. However, I am just on the first draft. Chances are this will be the only draft you will know about until, if ever, the novel is published. (There are three who are exceptions of course because I need beta readers and one is a writing buddy too.)
There are probably more obstinacies that can be added to this list but these are the ones I’m most insistent upon.
Do you have any obstinacies or obsessions like these? I’d love to know if you’re willing to tell.