Yes, it’s April Fool’s Day. Conversely, this doesn’t mean my post today is funny. I never really have understood the reason for having a day like this one. Usually it’s meant someone’s going to pull a joke on me that’s going to make me feel angry to the point of being enraged. Do you understand the meaning of this day?
Somewhere in the muck of not having my computer and being sick last week, I’ve lost the inspiration I need to write posts with any sort of passion. Maybe I never had it to begin with, but only the readers can determine that.
No, it isn’t writer’s block, not by any stretch of the imagination. I’m still working diligently and with ambition on my writing project. True, I’m seeing some things in my story now that I want to change. I was hoping that this wouldn’t happen–especially when I’m only a fourth into my first draft–but I can’t stop my mind for churning up ideas that make more sense to me than what I’ve written so far.
Do other writers have this problem? Is this what it means when a story goes stagnant on you? Or could it be the opposite in which my brain has become too vivacious? If any of this is true, maybe I don’t need to feel so bad about the dilemma I’m in at the moment. Perhaps I just need to go at this from a different perspective.
One thing that may help could be to go to my online writing group. If there are people there currently going through the same tribulations, I’ll feel better about things. As they say, misery loves company.
Of course, this trouble would have to happen when I can’t contact my writing buddy, Tess. She’s off gallivanting around in China until the end of April. If she were in her house up in Canada, I’d be writing her an email telling her of my woes. Knowing her, she’d be adequately sympathetic and, then, would give me suggestions on how to get out of this funk.
All of this could have something to do with my mood too. Indeed, this is more of a no-brainer. After having a crippled CPU and, after that, having the stomach flu, it isn’t any wonder that I’d be having some problems with inspiration and focus as well. On top of the PC botheration and feeling ill, it rained almost the entire time last week. Today the sunrise is streaming through the window here in the “computer room”. The temperatures are supposed to get into the 70s this week with sunshine. There isn’t any rain in the forecast so far until Friday, and even then, the temperatures aren’t supposed to plummet down past 60 during the day. This means some relaxing time outside soaking up some vitamin D.
After writing the above rant, I’m feeling a little better. Maybe my passion has gotten clogged up with gunk, like a water pipe would, making the flow snail-slow. Should I be thinking of the changes for my story as Draino? You have to admit, the analogy is there.