The first Wednesday of each month, The Insecure Writer’s Support Group has its members write a post in their blogs about whatever is holding them back from writing the way they want to. This is my contribution.
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Sometimes I Feel Lost
I sit at my desk with the keyboard in front of me. The screen of the computer shows the work I’ve completed thus far. I’ve lost my place before I’ve even begun. Reading the scene, hopes of recollection fill the air. Yet, the void remains. Where are those words that come next in the story?
I hate when I feel this way. What I want to appear on the screen is someplace there in my head, yet I can’t seem to find it. I often wonder if there will ever be a time when the words will just flow instead of having to drag each one out with the pulling the tugging on the chains of my passion for this craft.
I’m sure others have days like this. However, I have serious doubts that the number of their days are as many as mine. In the past year, I think I’ve only had about four days that weren’t an unbending struggle.
I’m one of those stubborn souls so I just keep on ploughing through the sentences and paragraphs looking for the end.
A Scripted Maze 
What I understand is that there are people who sit and spew out words. they write sentences/paragraphs that is well outside of their normal ability. It’s as though they’re possessed.
This isn’t me. I wait, invite my muse in and still, she stands at the door.
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Well, it’s nice to know that I’m in good company. 🙂
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I feel your pain. Each time I sit myself down at my desk and nothing comes to mind. Sure, I might have a topic in mind but then I’d have no idea how to start. Then when I do finally crank out a paragraph, I’d get stuck in the middle. Sometimes I’d write the middle first and then re-reading it, it makes no sense and I’m no closer to putting a coherent story together.
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Yes, I do almost exactly the same thing. The title, although maybe just a temporary one, comes easy. Then the battle for the content begins. Confound!
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Panic. I know panic well.I have a project but I pussy-foot around with everything and anything until I’m out of time. Then what? I can’t THINK of anything! I’m a fraud. I better hide before someone realizes that’s exactly what I am. It’s like this each time I start a project. My head is a block of wood and I want to set fire to it more often than not. No. You are not alone. ❤ ❤
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Fraud? No way, Tess. Scared little girl in disguise? Maybe, even probable. ❤
I love being in your good company. 😀
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Wish I could hide behind the disguise of a little girl but I’m a big girl now and because I am, I analyze more and worry more…you get the drift. ❤ ❤
Thank you. You are sweet, you know.
BTW. I haven't forgotten I owe you an e-mail. I have been working on it but have had OneDrive synchronizing headaches and have been rather paralyzed. Once this thing does synchronize, I'm going to find out why I'm having this problem and am going to do a complete outside drive backup. Grrrr.
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There isn’t any hurry on the story I sent for you to rip at ( 😉 ).
Maybe I can help with the OneDrive seeing that mine is working okay. I’ll send an email to you later tonight, probably after you’re fast asleep. ❤
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Thank you. I couldn’t even open your file last night. I’m up an running now after TWO visits to Best Buy. Horrible how a silly ‘puter can mess with me.
I hardly ever talk on the phone because I have to use the speaker and get a headache after a bit, but that doesn’t mean we can say HI. Will sent you number later. ❤
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Keep at it Glynis. Eventually it will come. 🙂
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That’s what I keep telling myself. Now that it looks as though the weather is finally going to calm down, my fears of failure are too. 😛
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