Weekly Recap 6/20

If you read my Wednesday post, you already know that I’m switching to a once-a-week entry for the summer. I may keep it up through the months of autumn too. I’m hoping to get a better rhythm going with the book I’m attempting to write.

Weekly Recap 6/20
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Being Daring

I’ve thought of myself as being a moderate risk-taker. I don’t seem to have any problems defending myself other than through the physical limitations I can’t ignore. I’ve even gone as far as defending my husband using angry words to get him what he needs. Don’t say one thing negative about my son or stepdaughter either. You’ll get more than an earful from me. And it doesn’t scare me in the slightest.

So why is it that I’m having such a hard time being daring in my writing?

What is it that’s holding me back?

I know what it is, of course. I just don’t want to admit it, even to myself. After all, I have my pride, as misplaced as it may be. The buzz word for it these days is belief. Someone would say that I have a belief that just isn’t true and it’s an obstacle for me. Sorry, but the word, for me, does not mean that at all.

The word I think should be used is perception. And it isn’t false or true. There isn’t a right or wrong with this word. There’s only preferences, opinions.

My perception isn’t in sync with what I want from myself. I’m being held back by habits of behavior that I had thought I had shaken loose from. Obviously, there are a few that still linger. Is there a way to be rid of them forever? Truthfully, I don’t know.

My first step to whatever freedom I can have from these perceptions is to mentally disassociate myself from the perceptions of others, in particular, the ones I feel closest to. I need to stop assuming someone has the right answer for me just because I respect them. I need to listen to me, not them.

The next step will be to make sure I incorporate my own perceptions into my life. I’ll let you in on a little secret here. I’m already doing this to a small extent. I just have to expand who I think is me into the rest of my current life. Notice that I said current life. What I really mean is my life at this moment. Trying to look beyond the right here and now is foolish. Anything could happen in the next moment to change everything.

The third step is to bring it into my writing. I want to be daring and fearless with it. It should be as easy as placing your hands on the keyboard and just starting to type away, but it isn’t. My conscience can play such mean tricks on me. It’ll get me worrying about the most ludicrous things. [What if she can see herself in this character. Will she suit me?] [Is using a few obscenities okay? I don’t know. But if I don’t, the character isn’t what I created. Still…] My conscience and I have a terrible time getting along sometimes. Maybe I should hand over a little cash and tell her to go buy some new shoes or something.

The novel I’m working on, as if there’s any others anywhere, is about a woman in her mid twenties finally starting a new career after obtaining her Master’s Degree. This protagonist is a conglomeration of people I know or have known. I’ve taken the flaws of couple of them and the good stuff from others. I want to make her as daring as I want to be. Taking the time to think this all out is one of my biggest misconceptions. When I first started with this “little” project, I had no idea about how involved I must get to get my characters to come alive.

Winter Bayne, a writer and fellow blogger, has been giving me tips about writing as she learns them. She’s a real sweetie. She says she’s having the same problem as I am. Her solution: get more detailed, and more detailed, and still more detailed about who your characters are. Yes, I know she’s right. How many blog posts have I read about character outlines, profiles, developments, and arcs? So many I can’t remember. I don’t think I have ADHD. At least I haven’t been diagnosed with it. Although, it could be one of the bonuses I received with my disability. Such is life. O_o

So how do I get through these three steps?

1. There’s an app for Windows that gives the person a subject to write about every day. Would doing this exercise instill the idea that my own perception of things is just fine and is worthwhile? It’s got to be better than doing daily aspirations. (I think they’re moronic.)

2. Get more courageous in my daily life. I say I a semi-recluse because everyone I know is telling me I shouldn’t do this alone and I shouldn’t do that alone. So I wait until someone’s available to be with me. Why, in the world, do I do this to myself? Most of the things I want to do I can do just fine on my own. Listen to me first!!!

3. I want to keep the email communications with Winter going because, despite the age difference (I’m old enough to be her mom.), I think she’s just a few steps in front of me on the journey of writing. She may leave me in the dust soon, but until then, I have this feeling that we need each other to let lose. And it could be because of the age difference.

Last Week’s Capers

  • Got my bike riding in. Because it’s a stationary one, I really don’t have to pay any attention to the exercise. Just get into the rhythm. So… I meditating while the pedals go round and round. I just close my eyes and go through the drill to relax. It isn’t deep meditation of course, but it’s helpful.
  • Read Writing Better Faster. A loaner from Winter (bless her heart). Winter really liked this book. I wasn’t as impressed. I liked it but the author’s style must be wrong for me.
  • WIP: I didn’t write as many words but that was due to spending time reading, and it was time well spent. Word count for the week: 2172 This word count was achieved in two day though. Before this transition (which is still going on) to being a plotter instead of a pantser, I was stretching it to get 3000 word in for seven days. In addition, I do like what I’ve written. The narrative is a little better (still needs work) and the dialogue has impressed (still needs work too).
  • I finally got the initiative going and opened the Kindle Fire that came when we signed up with the cable company. I was so afraid of getting confused, anxious, and/or overwhelmed. I almost did too. Trying to hit on the letters on its keyboard without doubling the letter or getting letters around it is a trick I had to learn in order to get it registered at Amazon.

Next Weeks Antics

  • Look for cheap EBooks, both fiction and on writing. I’m not going to just take anything but I’m going to enjoy the shopping.
  • WIP: Put some more hours into writing and expand my pre-writing material. What I’ll be doing is a detailed outline of each scene as I come to it. Using the info. in the outline, I’ll write the scene. I do need to get more detail into my plot outline and my novel summary too so that the scene outlines are easier to write.
  • Try to enjoy outside a little. It gets so muggy hot during the day but the evenings are nice. If I find an EBook to read, I’ll just read outside under the light in the carport.

Did you notice that I didn’t mention housework? I’m sick of discussing it. As much as I don’t want to do it, and sometimes is difficult for me to do, it still has to be done. Enough of the yik-yak about it.

Oh yeah! Before I forget — I changed all of my WordPress.Com subscriptions to weekly. I’m going to try it and see if I’ll get the digest for you who blog here. If I don’t, I’ll switch back to daily.

“Writing a book is a horrible, exhausting struggle, like a long bout of some painful illness. One would never undertake such a thing if one were not driven on by some demon whom one can neither resist nor understand.”
-George Orwell

 

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19 Replies to “Weekly Recap 6/20”

    1. That’s been my finding too, Tess. And, because the flow is better, I’m enjoying the process more. I liked it before, of course, or I wouldn’t have kept it up, but I’ll always take more pleasure any time I can find it. 😛

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    1. Jill, I do have a ending deadline, 3/28/2016. My approximate ending word count is 80,000. I could go on writing 3000 words per week and get to my goal before that date. I want to write faster because I believe that the flow of the story during the duration of the project will be better. Plus with the memory problem I have, the preliminary stuff sitting in front of me and writing faster will be a good strategy to battle the forgetfulness with.

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    1. From what I’ve been reading from other writers, all advice is subjective because of writing is an art. What trick works for one may not work for another. I figure because of this theory, the only way I can fail is to not try.

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  1. My biggest problem is the technology that’s taken over my writing. Today, my monitor stopped working and so did my internet. That cost me two hours of futzing (following the cable to the computer and plugging-replugging. Oh I hate that! I made my husband help).

    I do think you’re on the right path. Believe in yourself, move forward, and the h*** with people who are naysayers.

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    1. Jacqui, after that ice storm that hit here in February, I’ve realized the luxury of having the computer. I have 3 spiral notebooks, 2 that are unused still that sit in the wings as backups if I find myself without the keyboard. 😉

      The naysayers are keeping quiet these days. I’m not sure if it’s because they’re planning their next move or if they can’t find that next move.

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  2. Hi Glynis, you are getting a lot done. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Be bold and take that plunge in wanting to be daring in your writing. Pretend that you’ll publish your book under a pseudonym and that might help you to let go of any inhibitions. Of course, all of this might be easier said than done. 🙂
    Have a fabulous week!

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    1. I know I shouldn’t feel intimidated, especially when I’m writing. It would be different if I was to the professional editing stage and thinking about the publishing. Maybe starting with finding a pseudonym I like and using it would help. :/

      You have a fabulous week too. 😀

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  3. Glynis, I relate to this post so much. I am the only one holding myself back from my own writing. I never have that same block when it comes to editing for others. My perceptions of myself and my work get in the way too often. But as your post so eloquently shows, awareness is a bit start in the step in the right direction to change our habits. Turns out my biggest block to not being the daring writer I remember being so long ago was tied a lot to all the energy I put into a non-reciprocal marriage (woe is me!). I think it’s a good idea to only blog once a week, and don’t feel pressure to return to twice a week. I’m on a five-year plan for completing my first novel, but life happens, and the writing has to adjust along the way with all those changes. I did buy jerilynnwalker.com to use as a “real” author website when I make it down that path 😉

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    1. Come on, Jeri. You’ve always been a real author. Still, having the website does make it seem more official. What’s so ridiculous about this daring stuff is that during my daily life away from my WIP, I’m bold, bold to the point of being obnoxious sometimes. Probably if I felt more comfortable with a program like Dragon, I could bring that into my writing easier.

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